My life is a bus. I m the driver. There have been many passengers hopping on and alighting at various points of my life. The passengers usually have a minimal influence on my sense of directions. They wud just go along with me wherever I m heading to.
The tricky part is the bus conductor because both of us decide to drive the bus together. Sumtimes I make the “job offer” to him; there are other times where the conductor seeks “job opportunities” from me. Either way, it will be a mutual agreement between the two of us.
However, the bus conductor, like any other passengers, has no binding contract with me, which wud state tat he will always be there. So at any point of my journey, the conductor wud leave and I wud have to drive by myself again.
In the past, I may have been easily blinded and got myself involved in sumthing which I had barely seen the bigger picture. Be it 3 months, 6 months, 1 year, 3 years or more. It seemed to be pattern repeating itself, over and over again.
I learnt sumthing yesterday. After hearing wat Yo said, my mind and heart’s desire aligned itself. Usually they are running in opposite directions – the mind being the more rational one and the heart, full of emotions. But last night, peace arose and my questions answered. I guess this is wat they call being mindful at each moment.
I must admit, at a certain level, I have desired for sumthing unknown. Then I took a step back to listen. Instead of feeling dejected, I actually feel calm and serene. Tat’s wat Yo said is actually wat my mind heart has been telling me. When peace arose, happiness follows and I m smiling.
On another note, I have not been totally satisfied with my life right now. All these while, I have just been waiting for the chance to escape, to leave. But, the appropriate question which I should be asking (and not complaining), is: NOW tat I m here, wat can I do to make the best out of it?
At the end of the day, wat’s most important is to be happy. To me, tat will happen through compassion and peace. The thing I should learn is to find peace within my heart, wherever I m, watever I do and whomever I m with.
I think I have grown a little today.